I took the quiz that was part of the book. The results were of no surprise to me. What is a surprise to me is how little I exist anymore. That sounded bad, let me explain, as I read the description of my personality, I was saying, yes that is me! That is how I work, that is how I think, that is what is comfortable to me. Then I realized, that is not how I have been living my life. I have been trying to force myself to do things in a way that I is not the way I am designed by God.
What a crazy realization. Honestly, how did I not know this? I am a morning person at heart. I feel so much better when I am out of bed by 6am and productive in the morning. Trying to stay up late and then being exhausted in the mornings is not me. It isn't the way I tick. I struggle with the "polish" or "finishing" touches that really bring a project together. It is so hard for me to do that, and I really struggle when my projects never look like I want when they are complete. As a perfectionist, it is difficult for me to start something that I know I can't perfect. I know those sound like opposite things, but they are the same. It is hard to explain without sounding completely crazy, but long story short. I need to get back to being me, and cleaning in my own God given style.
What is your style? Do you fight it or embrace it?
What a crazy realization. Honestly, how did I not know this? I am a morning person at heart. I feel so much better when I am out of bed by 6am and productive in the morning. Trying to stay up late and then being exhausted in the mornings is not me. It isn't the way I tick. I struggle with the "polish" or "finishing" touches that really bring a project together. It is so hard for me to do that, and I really struggle when my projects never look like I want when they are complete. As a perfectionist, it is difficult for me to start something that I know I can't perfect. I know those sound like opposite things, but they are the same. It is hard to explain without sounding completely crazy, but long story short. I need to get back to being me, and cleaning in my own God given style.
What is your style? Do you fight it or embrace it?
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